To my best friend,

It’s been awhile,

And I think it will always feel that way,

No matter how much I talk to you.

Sometimes, before I sleep, you’re the last person on my mind

Sometimes, in the morning, you’re the first person on my mind

When I go home for holidays, you are one of the people I must see before I go

I don’t miss a chance to see you

Or, at least, what remains of you

I often ask myself,

What went wrong?

Who went wrong?

Where did I go wrong?

And, why?

Not yet 20, worked for years by yourself,

Just to see the college of your dreams,

Not yet 20, accepted to the school you’d worked so hard for,

Just to see the job of your dreams

Not yet 20, prepared to move for the umpteenth time,

Just to see the life of your dreams

The questions never end.

Why did the number stop at 19 instead of 91?

Why did you never say anything?

Why couldn’t I do anything?

Maybe it’s selfish, blaming myself

Maybe it’s foolish, blaming you

I hope the answers will come,

But they don’t seem like they ever will

But, I know you wouldn’t want us to be like this

To be so torn up over your leaving for a better place

So I just want you to know

Thank you for being in my life

And thank you for everything

We will live for us and for you

Because you live on in us

We miss you