No matter how loud, nobody will hear,
No one will see even a single tear.
Nobody will care, or swallow their pride,
No one will care ‘bout her feelings inside.

They’d fight and cheat, and yell even as she,
Prayed to a God that she didn’t believe.
The way she dealt with the pain she’d been through,
Was to hurt herself, it was all she knew.

In order to keep them from hurting her,
She’d distance herself without any words.
She’d bury her face in pillows at night,
To ask herself “Should I fight, or take flight?”

While waiting for a miracle to come,
She would trust in absolutely no one.
The thoughts she thought were skewed in such a way,
Live through the night and survive through the day.

Unable to speak, or show true feelings,
She’d keep to herself, and her own findings.
She’d hide from the world, and the things she knew,
In solitude, learning more as she grew.

Though many had come, more faded away,
Her heart grew a hole, that’s how it would stay.
In filling that hole, all hope disappeared,
Wishing someday that the hole would be cured.

The day she was saved, it was none too soon,
‘Lil did she know that one day she would bloom.
‘It will take time, won’t happen overnight,’
She didn’t know that her life would take flight.

You both were parents, searching for new love,
Not from a spouse, but one sent from above.
You wanted to save someone from their hurt,
And pick them up when they fell in the dirt.

As weary and lost as a child could be,
Who knew that the child you saved would be me.
When you found me, what you saw was corrupt,
This time, I didn’t bother looking up.

“No matter how loud, nobody will hear,
No one will see even a single tear.
Nobody will care, or swallow their pride,
No one will care ‘bout my feelings inside.”

You greeted me with warm smiles that day,
‘Your world was never meant to be this way.’
So destined to be too good to be true,
‘Lil did I know that miracle was you.

Later on in life, later down the road,
You found I may be too heavy a load.
But you stuck with me, you didn’t give up,
All I can say, it’s a blessing, not luck.

We’d fight and yell, you could only perceive,
As you prayed to God, you wouldn’t believe.
The way I’d dealt with the pain I’d been through,
Was to hurt myself, nothing else I knew.

‘Cause the world we lived in, the world we shared,
If only I’d died, no one would have cared.
The day I was saved, it was none too soon,
‘Lil did I know my plans would be ruined.

You gave me the chance that many don’t get,
To save me from, a life full of regret.
‘Cause far as I knew, I didn’t know love,
Not what it felt like, and not what it was.

So to keep everyone from hurting me,
I’d distance myself and would not take heed.
I’d bury my face in pillows at night,
Asking myself, “Should I fight, or take flight?”

This time, the question was answered for me,
Wasn’t allowed to say, what that would be.
Because this time, I’d given up the right,
To choose how I wanted, to live my life.

Too many bridges I’ve burned, to the ground,
To be able to all, come back around.
Leaving my home, involuntarily,
I came to see, a new reality.

By then there would be, a fork in the road,
It was my choice if I wanted to grow.
I’d try to dig my heels, into the dirt,
And deny the fact of those who I’d hurt.

In the end, all who I hurt was myself,
I’d deny the fact that I needed help.
Deep down, I knew something needed to change,
A miracle needed to be arranged.

While waiting for that miracle to come,
I would trust in absolutely no one.
The thoughts I thought were skewed in such a way,
Live through the night and survive through the day.

Unable to speak, or show true feelings,
I’d keep to myself, and my own findings.
I’d hide from the world, and the things I knew,
In solitude, learning more as I grew.

Though many had come, more faded away,
My heart grew a hole, that’s how it would stay.
In filling that hole, all hope disappeared,
Wishing someday that the hole would be cured.

Through much sadness and work, over the years,
There would be many and many more tears.
I would lose all, but my new sanity,
Now, I’ve come to see with new clarity.

Now I’m at that same, old fork once again,
And again I’m given the chance to begin.
Though an adult, my life’s only begun,
It’ll still be a while, ‘till I am grown.

How I do, I will pray to be able,
To stay on my feet, and remain stable.
You’ve given me, the strength to keep going,
With new insight, I will keep on growing.

The hole that was made, is now all sewn up,
All I can say, it’s a blessing not luck.
The “miracle” I found, lies within me,
My heart now opening, so I can see.

Who knew that my script would play out like this?
Thanks Mom and Dad, for not letting me miss.
Life’s simple pleasures, that come one by one,
I’m blessed to be, more fortunate than some…