TERRIFIED AND WORRIED

Time is ticking and I am growing anxious
Everyday going by, getting more nervous
Realizing that I have a decision to make
Regarding the road in which I will take
If I will go to court If she doesn't leave willingly
Forcing her out and facing that constantly
If instead I rather take a loss and I move
Especially thinking the abuse is hard to prove
Deciding if to take the legal way
And worried that she'll get to stay
Nobody sees the mess she has put me in
Don't nobody know how I've truly been
What people don't get is I'm afraid of her
Of course too, I still love her
Regardless of that, I still have to decide
Really what I'd rather do is hide
It puts so much pressure on me
Especially because no one knows truthfully
Deciding is really my worst nightmare
...because it has brought so much despair