I'm surrounded in a crowd
But I've never felt so alone.
Vaguely familiar faces plague me,
I want to scream out loud
Am I invisible? Translucent?
One would believe so. See me!
Hear me! I long for companionship...
I'm normal. I'm not a delinquent.
Notice me, but more, love me!
This is my cry for attention.
Who doesn't long for affection?
Stay with me and lonely you'll be.
Does it ruin everything that I'm afraid?
My deepest desire is love.
But I reject the option of it.
I do love, just not as portrayed
I'll give partial love to all.
But risk myself to none.
My reasoning is protection,
the truth is refusal to fall.
I'll never give myself to you.
You might think I have, wrong.
You might even give all to me.
I'll hold tight, but my heart isn't true.
Maybe in years I will learn how,
how to love and appreciate.
Just as you do, and always will.
My pessimism shan't allow.
Are you willing to wait?
It may be years before I'm able.
Am I important to you?
Are you patiently awaiting an update?