I've been lied to,
there is no such thing as
SUPPORT in family anymore.
"family" is a mass of people who are supportive of you, who believe in you...
or so I thought.
Family meant being there for you, even if you make a mistake but
What "family" means now is:
Forgetting that you're human and vulnerable
Always pushing you to inferiority
Making you believe you're a nobody
Insistent on your failures
Laughing at your struggles and letting
Yucky, conflicting feelings grow like weeds in you.
It may be the tears typing or the spitefulness driving me but
I know "family" meant better but as
I grow older, it slowly mutated and
all that is left are red eyes and scars on the heart.