Suffocation
When I was young and small
I would sit and play
My parents fed me do's and donts
on what I could and couldnt say
Then I got a little bigger
but still easy to deceive
so my parents fed me dos and donts
of what I should and shouldnt believe
Its like they biult me out of leggos
to make their "perfect kid"
so that they could be recognized
through everything I did
But when I got much older
I am well into my teens
Im able to make myown remarks
and question what things mean
But sometimes I find some trouble
coming up with my own thoughts
because everytime I speak my mind my parents say
"Do not"
One minute they say "Speak louder"
and at these words I frown
because it seems that as soon as I open my mouth
they say "Shut up, sit down"
My parents claim they want me to talk
They say they want me to be open
But I've been trained to close my brain
so its like my thoughts are broken
When I was little they told me
what I should and shouldnt say
But really they were saying
That I should only go their way
So they wonder why I lock myself up
for hours at a time
Its because thats the only way
I can think with my own mind
They cant accept my difference
They dont try to hear me out
They dont understand that the things theyve forced
are things that I can live without
They say I make this hard for them
because they cant grasp my motives
Their kids been gone for oh so long
and its like they dont even notice
Thats why I tend to keep things in
and limit my opinions to few
I can only imagine what my parents would think
If i were a daughter they actually knew