Why cant i see what others see. I want to see what others say of me. They say your awesome, they say your great. But they fail to realize  that I hold up a gate. I want to be true i want to be free i want to see what others say of me. I dont know if im just trippin or on a trouble-some road. I dont know who I am and what my future fortunes are to hold. I fail to realize that I am the only one holding my self down, and im the only one kickin when im on the ground. I want to get up, I want to fight back but I know that my inner-self has more adrenaline and more power to attack. Am I a monster am I sick, why do I choose to bury myself in a ditch. I want to not always seem perfectly foolish, and to not have a brain i pefer as a empty tool shed. Before i show ohers how my mind really rolls i have to stop covering up my many face i hold.