Sitting in class in the middle of the year
When voices in my head for some reason cause fear
I try to ignore it and go on with my day
Because I don't want to hear what they have to say
But as I ignore them longer,
They always just get stronger
I know it isn't real and no one else can hear it
But that doesn't stop me from sometimes doing what they say
People say "well just ignore/don't do it"
Don't I wish it were that easy
I get tired of explaining my illness to people who don't really care
So unless someone really wants to know, I usually don't share
I used to be ashamed
But now I'm proud to say
I have schizoaffective disorder
And I am still SURVIVING!