I never know what to expect.

Whether I would be loved more or be left.

Once I knew I was gay,

Everything got so complicated.

I was scared, hurt, and I didn't know what I should do.

I tried to speak up, but I kept quiet. 

Afraid of being left, afraid of being unwanted.

I didn't care if I was teased or abused,

I just wanted to be loved for who I really was. 

Instead of coming out, I still hide in fear with no one to help me.

Will people still love me, will I still have friends.

I sit almost always thinking, why am I here hiding in my head?

Feeling too locked away behind who I really am.