Masking yourself always seemed easier they said.
Fear always obtained me, strapping me down in
Chains and holding me in its hands as I struggled.
Just look into my eyes and you will see a shy girl.
The way of my being gives me desires to shiver,
So revealing my disguise stuffs me with dread.
I am not just an ordinary young one. While
Humans turn away from learning, I thirst for knowledge.
While humans love being together and articulate, I
Isolate myself with publications in a rear corner.
Privacy was my best friend and always has.
Fitting into their puzzle seemed perfect, as I expected
More joy but instead got an unpleasant gift of sadness.
I feared revealing my inner spirit due to judgment.
Here I am now behind a drapery of true being,
Petrified and obnoxious. Then it comes to light thinking,
Will it truly matter to them if they are my sincere companions?
By: Janie Espinoza