Spoling is relative
My brother and sister say I’m spoiled
because I get I may seem like I get everything I want
but that’s because I learned not to want
When I was told there was a grandfather I would never meet
I learned to stop wanting the dead to live
When I was told I have a grandfather who wishes I didn’t exist
When I was told that we don’t have money for christmas and medicine
When I was told that it was toys or mom
I learned not to want that pretty new doll
I learned if I want something I just can’t have
I learned I’m going to hurt them
When I was told it was clothes or food money
I learned to just wash and wear gently
When I was told that our home was going to be taken away
I learned to like a home with wheels
When I learned that money isn’t just paper it’s time
I learned I have no right to ask for things
I get what I want because I learned want what I get
I know I won’t ever live in a house again
I know I won’t get grandma to remember me again
I know I won’t see mom again
I know wanting those things will leave me with nothing
My brother and sister may call me spoiled
but he got ten more years of a mom than I’ll ever have
and she got nine
I know not to ask for things
I know to make it seem like I’m getting a lot
because I know the truth is too much to have