Slow Path
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I am taking the slow path, and so
She who cannot comprehend that she and I are different
Feels it is her right to say "you'll never be anything" to me
"She's just a burden," to my father
"She doesn't have discipline," to the neighbors
Simply because she cannot see how hard I work.
Day after day, negative words, as though her only purpose in life
Is to attempt to make me feel like I am of less worth
Than dirt tracked into the house.
Sticks and stones may break my bones
But broken bones get investigated
While words leave no marks on the body.
They slither through the mind like snakes through the undergrowth,
Sunning themselves upon the rocks of insecurities.
While I, weary traveler,
Must find the strength to destroy them.
I think that I would have preferred broken bones
Then, perhaps, someone would have understood
That there was something very, very wrong
And my father would not have denied abuse
Because I was not being beaten
Many nights, tears rained from puffy eyes
Until slowly the drought came
To wrap me in a cloak of numbness
Dreams were made to be broken