she
I’m writing poetry on a whim
I have no experience
But I can tell you of my experiences
I have a friend
We all have friends
Don’t we?
Don’t we?
One Saturday she up and goes and texts me
“Greg we aren’t friends anymore”
At first I was calm
I thought about all those scenes you saw in movies
The parts where people over react and act like assholes
I didn’t want to be an asshole I wanted to be mature
So I told her “Well I knew this was coming” and I
just preceded to be mature about the entire thing
but deep down I knew I didn’t want to be mature
deep down I wanted to break to scream
she had been my one and only true friend
and she had decided to tell me that we weren’t friends any more
through a fucking text
through A fUCKing TeXT
I felt like I had just gotten a break up text
She told me that I had a shitty personality and a shit mentality
She’s fucking crazy
I’m fucking crazy
I’m an introvert at heart
I enjoyed going out to the mall with her
I enjoyed spying on cute boys with her
And now all of a sudden my personality is the problem
I’m disappointed in myself
Not at the fact that I didn’t discover my own flaws
But at the fact that I didn’t discover hers
This is may be an asshole thing to do
But I feel like she’s the one who’s wrong
Bear with me because my thoughts get a bit dark here
But who is she
Who is she s to tell me
To tell me
That I am the one who’s shitty
IM SORRY BUT I CAN’T REALLY HEAR YOU OVER THAT BULLSHIT YOURE SPEWIING
Does she look at herself
Does she understand how shittily she has treated me!
I’m disgusted
I’m disgusted at the fact that I need her more than she needs me
You know
One time she actually avoided me for a day
But what she did
It’s unforgiveable
we were about to cross paths and she goes the other way
I don’t know how fucking far her head is up her ass
But thinking that I am that attached to someone
She really must not know me
But in the end I’m going to be a good boy
I’m going to steal a yearning glance at her when I pass her in the hallway
And when she talks to me I’m going to lap it up like the god dog I am
But she better watch out this dog is out for blood
And I don’t care about the social consequences of snapping on her
I’d rather be free than a slave to her approval