I don’t even know where to begin

My whole world has collapsed

I feel like an unwanted sin

How do you tell someone you’ve relapsed?

The pain I see in my friend’s eye

The immense guilt she feels crushes me

as she realizes I’ve been trying to hide

This is my spilled cup of tea

All my lies are such an unbearable weight

And it’s not for fucking attention

Let’s get that one thing straight

I promise it wasn’t my intention

I never asked to be this way

I can’t swear that I’m okay