they say

stay alive

there's hope

there's joy

mine came even after i gave up

just keep going

but i've been going

and going

and going

and i just want to stop

to rest

to not go on.

i want to be numb again.

i want to fall and never land.

i want to not exist anymore.

but they say

keep going

there's hope

your life is valuable.

but what is valuable about a life spent wishing it didn't live?

it pretends

for everyone else's sake

because other people care

but they say other people's opinions don't matter

self worth comes from inside

but if it doesn't value itself

what's the point?

when it'd rather just die.