It's a normal school night

I'm so tired but I can't sleep

I finished my homework  Now come The normal poison thoughts  Tears running down my cheeks I keep thinking that If I stopped trying to fix things all the time That they would just fall apart It's true They'd just crumble on top of me I spend so much time trying to hold them up  I care about it all too much If I didn't reach out to anyone  Who would come calling That's what scares me the most Lying underneath the rubble Of the pedestals I put people on  All of them running away laughing  Too loud to hear me in my meek voice mumble "Please, please, I need you so much" "I am afraid to be without you" "I am afraid to be alone" They'd all just run along To a sunnier place  Far from me in my disease of the heart I'm only damaged because I thought for once Maybe I wouldn't have to try so hard  It's a normal school night Tomorrow is Friday