Say What You Mean, and Mean What You Say
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I will admit, I have made some mistakes,
But I have never made any so great,
As the times when there’s been things I’ve decided not to say.
Or everything I have ever missed because I was afraid.
All the things that could have been if I had said how I felt.
Now I struggle every day with the hand I’ve been dealt.
But the dealer of the cards, has always been me.
If I could only go back and make myself see.
That everything was going right, but I missed my chance,
Because I should have kissed her, that night at the dance.
She was ready for it too, she even closed her eyes,
But I just looked away, I couldn’t tell at the time.
That was the moment that changed it all,
And she looked hurt, as our chances began to fall.
The girl I had loved from afar, for four, long years,
Slipped through my fingers, as I stood there in fear.
A fear that was based completely in self-doubt,
When I should have known that I nothing to worry about.
Because I knew in my heart, that she felt the same way,
And now this hurt in my soul seems too big of a price to pay.
And as I looked in her eyes, I knew it was the end.
For our new broken bond left an opening for my “friend.”
He was my confidant, my brother, my partner-in-crime.
And he threw it all away, as he began to undermine.
Now they are together, and I am alone.
And the seeds of hate have already been sown,
And the fields in my heart, has been covered in salt.
But there is nothing I can do, because I know it’s my fault.
If she only knew the way I still feel,
We could make amends, and my heart could start to heal.
If the sands of time could only move in reverse,
I would not make the same mistakes with her.
These are some things I would do anything to change,
But I have waited too long, and now her heart is out of range.
Maybe it was a lesson, that I hold dear to this day,
It taught me to say what I mean, and to mean what I say.