Running Through My Head

We can't be friends,That much I know.Ever thought of calling when you've had a few?'Cause I always do.Was I too drunk to say what I said to you?Was I too blind to go and see straight through you?These four words don't come easy,I don't love you.I wish it wasn't so.Maybe I'm too busy being yours to fall for somebody new,Now I've thought it through.   She was the prettiest woman you’d ever lay eyes on,Then a man of low degree sat by her sideAnd whispered to her he'd take her for a ride.He can't replace the way it made him feel,And would turn her sharp,And would make her whine.And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into her mind.   I'm built for it, all the abuse.Rinse and repeat with the last one, my name I don't recallI just run up my check, oh I spent it all.I got secrets, that nobody, nobody knows.I said lots of shit before, that's the drug's fault.I’ve tried to make me go to rehab.I don't ever want to be touched again,But I'm not gonna spend ten weeksHaving everyone think I'm mad.And it's not my pride,But all these tears.   He was the kind of boyYou want so much, it makes you sorry.Then I think of all the timesI tried so hard to leave him.I need some sleep,It can't go on like this.Everyone says I'm getting down too low.Everyone says you just gotta let him go.I’ve just gotta let him go.But, Mother, do you think he's good enough, for me?Mother, do you think he's dangerous, to me?Mother, will he tear your little girl apart?   Boy, this is all for you, just walk my way.And he didn't walk up with that "How you doin'?" When he came in the room.He said “There's a lot of girls I can do withBut I can't without you.”I'm doin' forever in a minute Thinkin’ about that summer night in August.I've been lonely, missing your body.You've been out of touch, and far away.I close my eyes and try to forget you, And every time I do, I just see your face.After all this shit that I've been throughWhy’re you so willing to walk away?

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