by Ariel Douglas (20 October 2014)
I know exactly what you’re doing,
I see it in your eyes.
For that matter I’ve heard you say it,
you’re running away from God.
You say that He’s just not right for you,
but is that what you really mean?
Is it truly God that is the problem?
Or is it the legalism you’ve faced since birth?
I know that you’re running,
running as fast as you can.
But I hope you know you’re getting nowhere,
you can’t be snatched away from His hand.
But I guess that calls into question,
whether you ever believed what you claimed.
Or if you were just putting on a show,
so that people wouldn’t judge you
or question you as to why.
I know this thought you’re thinking,
I’ve had it once myself.
But then I found I was unable
to ignore the blatant facts around me.
I don’t understand what you hope to accomplish
in this one person marathon.
It’s like you’re on a treadmill,
you’re running as hard as your legs will carry you,
but you’re no farther away than you were.
I have a deeply rooted pain,
from the time before I hardened.
A pain that you planted and watered
and gave ample sunlight to grow.
And now you’re tugging at it,
trying to unpack my heart.
No matter how hard you pull
my pain for you will not surrender,
it stays in my fragile heart.
I truly, truly feel for you
and do not want you to go to hell.
I know you say it sounds pleasant,
but we both know that it’s not the truth.
You say you worship Satan,
but that’s another lie.
And even if you do, Hell is not your safe place.
You see, Satan doesn’t rule hell,
it’s his punishment as much as yours.
But it doesn’t have to be that way,
come back to the love you knew.
Come back to the place where acceptance
was never a question to ask.
Come back to the peace and love
that never fails you.
Come back to the One who loves you
and created you to be.
Come back to the God who made you
and will soar you around on eagles’ wings.