It’s happening again-you know how I get sometimes

I stare all around this room and feel like crying.

Im nervous, anxious, distracted…so many different emotions

For a short time, my feelings were in remission—

Yes, like cancer, because my feelings are a cancer.

And amid all this chaos, I wonder what they really know about me…

 

HEY, CLASS! HEAR ME OUT:

Do you even care? Would you if I told you?

Yeah, im on the brink of tears—why, I don’t know, I just get this way sometimes.

Aren’t we allowed to show a little emotion? Is it not the HUMAN thing to do?

We’re all guilty of it; we’re all prone to show the world that we’re upset—

So why can’t I show a little anger, frustration, BITCHINESS?

Did you know that I’m a HOPELESS ROMANTIC?

Love sucks—it really does, and people…hell, so does my life.

…this is just how I get sometimes….

I’m in love—OBVIOUSLY—it’s not working out—OBVIOUSLY—

And it’s killing me because I want a muse…to be amused

HEY, CLASS: HEAR ME OUT!

 

HEY YOU: rays of sun upon your field of wheat colored hair

Juvenile looks with your obsession of pink

Pearly whites barred up like prisoners

Personality like a giant magnet…

Eyes so immense, so spellbinding that my soul now swims around in those captivating orbs

So close, so distant…

I know your touch upon my skin, upon my lips—yet never has mine met yours

HEY YOU: purposely passing you in the hallway but I can’t bring myself to talk to you…

How is it that I have you in my class and can’t approach you?

Am I really that strung up on you that you make me so shy?

That my vocals refuse to basque you with the poetic talent I have perfected over the years?

 

HEY YOU: you’re right in front of me…

My feet literally under your seat

All I have to do is reach out and grab you…

But I can’t seem to bring myself to do it…

In so many words… “I LOVE YOU”…

But I can’t even mouth those words to you…

I want to but I can’t…

HEY YOU: I need you—want you

I need your touch, your scent…

Your eyes to burn into mine…