breathing.
it’s like a snake wraps tighter around my lungs with every breath i take
trying to find something steady to hold on to,
to stop the world from spinning

i’m dizzy.
and i feel like i’m slipping through my fingers
who i really am and who i wish to be
everything i’ve ever desired,
replaced by You.

You who i made the center of my world,
You who gave me happiness
and was so quick to take it away

i’m trying, still trying
to breathe, to dream, to live?
but with You, but without You
no matter what you do, i cant escape

and the reality is,
i who was so loyal
and You who were so not
are no longer us.
we are no longer two that formed as one,
i am one.
You are one.
or perhaps we were never one

our perceptions of the world are all unique,
and You who was my world i perceived as perfect.
not in the actual sense but in the sense of perfectness for me
an illusion drawn by the emptiness in my heart
that You seemed to fill.
by the promises you made
and failed to keep.

and i’m left here in the dark
trying to behead the snake that you snake that you so skillfully wrapped around my heart
with every kiss you gave me,
and with every moment you took away,

i’m still trying.