Rejection

Bang

 

The first door shuts

 

I weave my way through a sea of greats

Disappointed because I failed to make the cut

I mean, I finally got the call, left my hall, fought and kicked so hard but I dropped the ball.

 

Bang

 

I shut my door and I collapse on the floor

I yell, what the hell

I want to stay down but perseverance, she yells right back

GET UP, PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER 

Start again, from scratch if you must 

Yes, today you lost but today is yesterday 

Can you hear the bell ring?

No? Good! It means your time is not up yet.

Work to the bone

Work till the end

Sleep when you’re dead

Ya heard?!

 

Bang. Bang. Bang.

 

My heart beats at the start of round 2

I walk up to the desk

I am administered the test

I feel the sweat slug on and freeze at my temple

my name is... my name is...

Shit shit shit

What is my name again??!!

the drums are getting louder

 

BANG! BANG! BANG!

 

*breathe*

I remember to breathe 

the lines come to me with ease

Well geez, Thelma and Louise 

gods be damned, they are nodding and smiling

this isn’t so bad, I’ve definitely got it in the bag

 

Bang

 

the gavel signifies the end

She walks up to me and smiles 

Lipstick scarlet red...

what a beautiful smile she has

“It was lovely to meet you,” she said

“you’ll be hearing from us shortly “

 

Bang

 

the sound of the other shoe falling...

It’s the day of reckoning. 

do I get the big envelope or do I get the small envelope 

Please god let me get the big envelope 

Please god let me get the big envelope 

I get the small envelope 

 

Bang

 

I shut the door and I collapse on the floor

This is it! No I can’t take anymore of this shit!

I seethe and hiss but perseverance, she does not want to see my teeth

UP UP UP

That bell has not rung yet

Cry if you must 

Because today you lost

But today is yesterday 

Work to the bone

Work till the end

Sleep when you’re dead

Ya heard?!

 

Bang

 

O GOD, O GOD, O GOD

tick tock, tick tock

“Hi”

“Hello”

“You may go in”

*breathe*

here goes nothing

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This poem is about: 
Me

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