At first it was just thirst. An education forced but whats worse is that i made a point to make me heard...

Too much attention would be absurd I prefered to let it lurk. Dont look at me with those types of intentions that always made me hurt.

Sure ive seen the latter premise and later than expected, upon rejection then rejection I kept my search toward my selection. 

I kept walking,

still what have i stepped in? some steep type of steeple that I made out to be a blessing

read into it deeper, I listened to the teacher, I listened to the preacher, and even to my mother until i decided i dont need her. Id be a speaker but I lacked the courage. 

It could be worse, so stop your complaining at least its not raining then again what am i saying i found what im craving in the pavement. 

And they wont let me

No, they wont let me

my fault i stalled, and now i haulting its all my fault and i could do this. 

theres always next year until there isn't 

This one could change my life i could do this right if i would just stop throbbing, bobbing my head and disagreeing. Just a job or just a thought, my lifes changing one way or another oh brother why bother. I cant do this for my father or act like im a martyr for a daughter i havent given life too and may not. Shit its just a thought and yet i cant stop looking at each tick and tock on the clock and wondering how these ticks talk and criss cross my ambition.