Raining Too Long: Reflections of the Formerly Suicidal
Can you come over?
It's a matter of life and death
Can we talk?
It's a matter of life and death
Answer your phone
I don't know what to do
I was hoping I could talk to you
I'm not sure why it struck me
Hurts too much to cry
And I'm thinking it might be a good time to die
It's nothing you did, don't worry about that
And it's not like this day's any worse than the last
I've just waited so long for things to get better
It's like someone's told you there'll be a change in the weather
"Just hold out through this storm, soon the sun'll shine
It'll be warm, and bright, and well worth your time.
The sun will come out, I promise, somehow---"
Who CARES? It's raining NOW
I'm cold, and I'm wet, and I'm trapped in these clothes
That make me feel twice my actual weight
I want to be warm, don't you understand, I want that more than anything
I just don't know how much longer I can wait.
It's been raining for years, and even when it lets up
My wet clothes continue to weigh me down
And I'm just calling because I thought you
Might have a different take on the weather today
Something I haven't heard before
Something profound
Even if not
I just want someone to know
That the rain is really taking its toll
And right now I think I'd rather just
Not feel it at all
And I'm sorry
I'm calling because right now, there are nothing but clouds on my horizon
And I need you to tell me about the sun.