Have you ever loved someone so much you'd do anything and everything?
I have tried to avoid the memories but there are days they still knock the wind out of me.
Sometimes when I cant sleep you suddenly cross my mind,
And I start to look for your things to see what i still find.
Have you ever needed someone so freakin bad?
I have and to think i'll never have them again makes me more than sad.
Sometimes I try to hide the pain and go from girl to girl,
I'm Stef Gonzalez damn it, how can I let one person take over my whole world.
Have you ever been with someone and wished it was some else?
I have it usually lasts moments but it still feels like hell.
Sometimes they'll try to see my eyes and I have to pull away,
It reminds of when you would do then it would follow by a "please don't go away"
All in all your memory for whatever reason won't go,
As hard as I try to it sneaks up on me and always steals the show.
I can go days without thinking of you and all that use to be,
Then suddenly it hits me and makes me drop down on my knees.
I cry for a while just thinking of how things could have been,
And I always end those nights with a simple "I still love you pumpkin"
-S.Gonzalez