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My heart pounding so hard,
Nearly bursting out of my chest;
Butterflies flutter wildly in my stomach.
Will today be the day I see you again?
I get dolled up – just in case.
Now I’m late.

I hope to see you,
Yet clouds of doubt linger nearby.
What would I even say?
Mixed waves of excitement and hurt;
You blew me off – Again.
I care so much about you,
But you won’t even give me a chance.
I’m not over you. Never fully was.
You’ve got me under this spell,
I can’t break.
But perhaps, soon enough,
I’ll be disillusioned
Once and for all.

You whispered sweetness into my ears,
Coerced me into letting my guard down,
Then disappeared –
Again.
All talk, no action.
All bark , no bite.
Yet here I am,
Still not over you.
Still hurt from your most recent infraction.
Still hoping to hear from you,
To see you.
Is that sad? Pathetic? Ridiculous?
Whatever it is, it’s the truth.

Will I get to see you again?
And if so, what then.
Another cycle
Another time you make me feel warm and safe
With your charms and your lies,
Only to vanish.
I am worth more than that.
You don’t deserve my love.

Seduce me with your wonderfulness
Hook me
And hold my heart captive.
How do I free myself?
How do I let go?
This hope I always hold near,
Does more harm than good it seems.
It makes me feel so foolish,
So Angry!
You make me feel crazy.
Am I really crazy?
Or am I just crazy
About You?

Despite your games;
Or is it because of your games?
You keep me entangled,
Keep me guessing,
Yearning,
Holding my breath
In suspense.
Is that what it is.
Or is it truly my deep
Desire
To get back what I
Abandoned
So long ago?

Fear fueled my actions then,
Desire rules them now.
I connected with you in a way
I’ve never connected
With anyone
Before.
I think you felt it too.

Though our time together was short lived
And many moons ago,
It was unforgettable.
I can’t explain my feelings for you,
Sometimes I don’t even understand them.
I’ve tried to let them go,
But they’re strong and
Run deep.

You opened up to me once before,
I got scared,
Pushed you away.
It was a mistake.
I apologized, explained.
I laid my heart on the line.

You played my
Vulnerability
To your advantage
Strung me along,
Got what you wanted,
Left me dazed & confused.
I guess I thought I deserved it,
Maybe that’s why I was
So willing to overlook those
Pained moments.

While there is no denying,
The sparks between us
Were electrifying;
Chemistry like I’d
Never known before…
My fond memories are starting to
Fade away.

I’m beginning to see that
Perhaps
I’ve been holding on to
Nothing
This entire time.
There is no going back
To the way things were.
It is in the past,
& that is where it belongs.

You hold a special place
In my heart,
This will always be true.
But I’ve got to let these feelings go,
Let You go.
I shall close chapter now,
And carry forth the
Lessons that I have learned.
It is time for me to move on with my life.

Comments

MVP-Most Valuable Poet

nice poem
i'm glad you moved as it is beautifully written
someone more deserving will recognize you

Miss_Chrys

Thank you for the kind words!! I truly appreciate the support & encouragement

MVP-Most Valuable Poet

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Miss_Chrys

I definitely will! can you post the link... I don't know how to get to your poems from here (I'm new to the site)

MVP-Most Valuable Poet

all you have to do is go to the bottom right side of the screen and see search
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MVP-Most Valuable Poet

hey chrys

hope all is well

are you still wrting poems?

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