Pregnant with Thought
I could say that my life was changed in pre-school
but that would be my mother's story.
I could say that my life was changed in middle school
but that is typical.
My life changed when I realized that my life was not the life I thought I had.
When I realized my brother and I
witnessed my mother being abused,
when I saw my mother
try to kill herself, and
when I realized my mother had a personality disorder.
When I realized I thought I was fat
from dance in elementary school,
puberty in middle school, and
the stresses from high school.
When I realized I was trying to kill myself freshman year
and creating new life my junior year.
My life changed when I refused to let these things define me.
When I refused to fall prey to my eating disorder,
to be another ordinary pregnant teen,
and to let these things hold me back.