like a piece of chocolate 

forgotten in the cup holder of your car

on a hot summer day, 

i wait for your visit; 

glimmering and tempting 

with no where to go.

 

at a glance, nothing seems

out of the ordinary;

my facade perfectly intact.

and then, you pick me up,

squish.

the mess that i am inside

comes pouring out at your command.

 

you speak of words that

collide in my brain.

clustered and crowded together, 

your thoughts take over mine.

everything you’ve ever whispered

into my ear is trapped in my head

like an echo in a cave.

 

i trust you,

so i watch my dreams 

run like sand

through the fists that i make,

drowning while everyone else

around me is breathing. 

i am hopeless,

 

and this is why

i start to ask myself,

maybe

i deserve

all of this;

to be a victim 

of my own mind.