Plastic Shadows
Plastic Shadows
Fake lies
Screams that slowly die,
But where do I come into play?
Oh, I remember now -
The blood rolling down my sleeve...
Flashbacks of being shoved
-like a ragdoll.
Meaningless. Foolish. Worthless.
Those words bury deeply within me
I choke and I can no longer breathe.
I ty to fight back
But you laugh - they laugh...
Everyone laughs.
School is not the only hell -
Siblings tackle me with words
Fierce and bright -
Like flames.
They burn my skin, but I still feel the same.
Behind closed doors,
No one knows for sure.
I think and dream
Of a day to escape,
Can you imagine where I may end up?
Or do I have to spell it out for you?
In the sky -
Away from here,
But somewhere close to the water,
So I can drown my tears.
I can't run to Facebook..
No, that is worse -
More Plastic Shadows scrape me
Laughter and memes of my day.
The one I tried to forget,
But it is displayed.
Forever.
How much longer will I cry?
Am I inhuman?
An animal?
Should I disguise myself?
No- wait
Silence.
Shh - do you hear that?
Drip. Drip.
My tears on my keyboard;
Like animal blood sliding out
Of a broken bath tub.
How much longer?
Plastic Shadows,
Illuminating over me like masks.
Everyday is a cloudy day
Until those disguises are trashed.
Leave me alone.
Let me disappear into the cloud -
The cloud of Silence.
Watch the Plastic Shadows mock me,
What will you do?
Fear consumes you -
You bystand for the fear...
The fear of being caught in a knot,
But as you bystand,
I am in a tighter knot than anyone will ever fear.
I clutch my books,
Hide in the library,
And watch you blend in
With the Plastic Shadows.