Okay Forever by Lenniahelen
Lately I’ve been feeling lonely and depressed
And maybe it’s bc I’ve had too much rest
I can’t seem to fix myself
Maybe I just need to straight 86 myself
Nahh I’m just playing
But really I’m just saying that I need help
Even though I won’t ask you
I want you to see my drowning
I’m suffering in the middle of the road
Far from my home
I’m in a place which feels familiar
I remember this
The feeling where I was kissed
By the lips of suicidal thoughts and depression
Whew child I hate this misconception
Y’all thinking I’m fine, but I want to blow my brains out
Scream and shout and let it all out
Willi.am this person being speared and pierced w/ the black eyes of deception
Losing my connection
With my soul
I have all these holes
That have failed to be filled
And I walk around empty
Maybe this is who I’m meant to be
But it’s okay
Bc ik that dark days
Don’t last forever
But my hope for happiness does.