I write because I'm trying to be happy.

I write because I always wanted to sing.

Wanted to be a singer.

Kind of wanted to do my own thing.

Now that has really changed.

I just want to go back to school,

and really do my own thing.

That's really why I'm writing.

That's why I'm really fighting.

I never got the chance to listen.

Because I never thought I was good enough.

When life hits you, it hits you really hard.

But we all learn our lessons,

because everyone wants to be that special star.

But they're not their special star.

You're just your own special star.

But everyone really can go far.

Do what they want.

That's why I write.

Trying to be me.

Trying to figure out me.

Trying to be the best that I really can be which is me.

I write because I want and possibly need this money.

I want to go to school because that's where I really was.

I stopped going because I stopped looking at it for what it really was.

But now that it's all out of my system I'm finding a new outlook on life.

How to finally do what IS RIGHT?

So now.

That's another reason why I write.

I want to write when I'm happy but not really depressed.

All it ever does is suck me dry until I'm dumb and restless.

Why can't the future just be for me and you and you and you too?

But still they do their own thing and not have to worry about them too.

I did look at life as a game but never really noticed that I wasn't in it through and through.

It doesn't excuse how hurt people made me and could learn to misuse.

Another reason why I'm writing is because I feel this IS RIGHT.

How I felt about myself wasn't really that polite.

Then I began to learn how to love myself and so

I finally realized.

That life isn't a game and it really shouldn't be played in the hands that were slain.

When writing to me, 

I wanted to feel free.

I didn't want to be boxed in, 

I wasn't writing to pretend.

I just wanted to try to feel again within.

The answer is not really an answer,

just a bunch of mixed up ideas.

So now that I'm actually thinking why I am writing,

there's more than one idea.