I am a ghost here

Cold

Lifeless

Falling

A  P    A       R            T

 

I don’t know where I’m going,

But when I get there,

I’m afraid I might simply

disappear.

I don’t know what I want,

And if I did

I don’t think

I would even know why.

I’m tired of missing something

When I don’t know what it is.

Days drift

In

And out

I am alive

But it’s like I cannot

FEEL

Save for the hell

That seems to have frozen my mind.

 

The demons are put away

Back inside the box

Where I keep them when they sleep.

So why, WHY

Do I feel NOTHING?

My world is empty,

Devoid of color,

Devoid of meaning.

 

All I know anymore is

Bitter words

Some sour taste

Empty promises.

I am not sad,

Or angry,

Or scared,

Or depressed.

I am trapped in a big, vast               V                         O                        I                           D

Of nothingness….

 

And I don’t know how to get out.