not sitting still
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I've been told,
Several times actually,
to stop fidgeting,
moving,
talking,
singing,
"Sit still now!"
adults would scream,
school was a battle,
between myself,
the administration,
my parents,
quickly i learned,
finding a solution,
was no longer an option,
it was a necessity,
music had me,
had my back,
had my soul,
it ignited me,
in ways that made me move,
goosebumps raised,
fingers squeezed,
headphones.
That was it!
This was my fix,
I had danced,
from 8 years old,
on to eternity,
headphones in,
tears would stream,
as i moved,
i pushed every emotion,
my core was torn,
i felt every lyric,
every syllable,
every chord,
i felt it,
i felt alive,
i still feel it,
alone,
in elevators,
staircases,
bathrooms,
plug myself in,
dance it out,
quickly of course,
no one is watching,
but i wouldn't mind,
if they did.