His kisses
Dragged her through the night..
And she knew
That the time was right..
But patience
It was her virtue..
Because she knew..
What she would have to do..
And she said

I'm not ready to lose you
I'm not tryna confuse you
Just not ready to lose you
How could I prove to you
Tell me what else I could do
You feel hurt and I feel it too
But I'm not ready to lose you

He would clean her face
Like he controlled the tide
We don't have to do this tonight
She loved him and he loved her too
Only so many things that love could do
She'd hate for the truth to spill
Wondered if he'd love her still
He met her dad and her mom
He asked her out, asked her to prom
They walked hallways holding hands
Asked her would you like to dance
She felt safe but tucked inside
Secrets she was forced to hide
She hoped he'd never let her go
So she would never let em know
The night came and he wanted love
And again she said no and because...

I'm not ready to lose you
I'm not tryna confuse you
Just not ready to lose you
How could I prove to you
Tell me what else I could do
You feel hurt and I feel it too
But I'm not ready to lose you

Just tell me you'll hold on
I need you to stay strong
I'm not ready to miss you
Trust me you're no issue
Tell me what else I could do
You feel hurt and I feel it too
But I'm not ready to lose you

She hated that they stayed together
And things only got better
Moved on with each other
She could only wonder
She knew he was the one
And she knew that day would come
She hid each and every pill
Didn't know if he'd love her still
When they moved in together
Things only got better
And he knelt down on one knee
Asked, will you marry me?
She didn't know what she would do
And said I could never say no to you
But this secret's getting hard to hide
And for many years I've lied
So you don't wanna marry me
Not with this HIV
And he looked her in her eyes
The words took him by surprise
She said sorry I guess now I'll go
He grabbed her arm and let her know...

I'm not ready to lose you
I'm not tryna confuse you
Just not ready to lose you
How could I prove to you
Tell me what else I could do
You feel hurt and I feel it too
But I'm not ready to lose you

Just tell me you'll hold on
I need you to stay strong
I'm not ready to miss you
Trust me you're no issue
Tell me what else I could do
You feel hurt and I feel it too
But I'm not ready to lose you