To No One In Particular

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To no one in particular

I just wanted to say good morning

And I hope your day is lovely

And you wake up and you’re happy

And you don’t have to force yourself out of bed

Or wonder what’s the point?

I hope you don’t hate yourself when you look in the mirror today

And that you can see all the good instead of the bad

Because there’s so much good

if you just let you love yourself enough to see it

 

So, good morning

 

To no one in particular

I just wanted to say how are you?

Because I don’t know if a thousand people will ask you that today

Or just five people

Or maybe nobody else at all

But I wanted to make sure I did

Because your feelings matter

To somebody

Even if it’s just me

 

So, how are you?

 

To no one in particular

I just wanted to say I’m happy

I didn’t need you with me every step of the way

And even though you tried

I managed 

And regardless of the obstacles

I prevailed

And I’m in a good place now

Even if it kills you

I like it here

I like this feeling  

And nobody is going to take that from me

 

So, I’m happy

 

To no one in particular

I just wanted to say it gets better

Because it does

I know everyone says it but

I promise

Everything seems like shit now

But it doesn’t always

And I’m not going to lie

Some days it gets worse

Some days are just awful

And some days are just okay

but okay is better than nothing right?

 

so, it gets better

 

To no one in particular

I just wanted to say it’s okay to be afraid sometimes

It’s okay to wonder what’s happening next

Or where you’re going

Or where you are

Or who

it’s okay not know what next step you should take

because contrary to popular belief

not everyone knows the answers to everything

all the time   

 

so, it’s okay to be afraid sometimes

 

To no one in particular

I just wanted to say f**k you

Because I wasn’t brave enough to say it then

But that doesn’t mean that I never stopped being upset

Or that you deserved to get away with whatever you did

And I hope this hurts you now

half as much as you hurt me then

 

So, f**k you

 

To no one in particular

I just wanted to say I forgive you

Because even still

No one deserves to live with guilt for this long

And even if I’m still upset

I can’t hold on to this forever

I’m not doing this for you

I’m doing this for me

 

So, I forgive you  

 

To no one in particular

I just wanted to say it wasn’t your fault

What they did to you

The way they spoke to you

The way they touched you

Or put their hands on you

Had nothing to do with you

And everything to do with them

It wasn’t the company you keep

Or the situation you put yourself in

And don’t let anyone ever tell you otherwise                

 

It. Wasn’t. Your. Fault.

 

To no one in particular

I just wanted to say I’m sorry

For anyone who may have wronged you

And for anyone who ever hurt you

And was too much of a pansy to tell you themselves

For that person who broke your heart

Or the parent that destroyed your confidence

Or the friend that killed your trust  

Or for anything I ever did

Because I know I’m just as guilty

 

So, I’m sorry  

                       I’m so f**king sorry

                                                           To no one in particular

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