A New ME
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I am always two steps ahead of my shadow. Like a doll without batteries I want to talk but have no means to speak. Rhythmically I’m always off key never know the right way to speak when it comes to explaining me. But I am that soft spoken note that plays well with others, that shines when desires, that creeps up least expected, that steps back when essential. My sound does not defy me or minimize me but drives me to be nothing other than the best kind of version of me.
It was early morning nervousness, afternoon frustration and monday morning optimism. Later behold came the luminous rejection letter. It was like playing different tunes with a broken instrument..They only lit a match with no flame under me, but I was the one that added the fuel to the fire. I made a second heart beat one for me and one for my dreams, that they sure couldn't take away from me.
Being knocked opened my eyes to the colorless world that I once use to see. I became aware that there are always more opportunities. I create those, I accept those and I am decided how far I can go. Uncontrollably from time to time my shadow takes over me, we speak the same, we move the same but we’ll never be the same. I am always the lone ranger two steps ahead.