I needed you
And you needed me
Our young minds functioned so differently
"Opposites attract"
We were the epitome of that
I moved away as my feelings remained
You lied and you tried to push me away
"I hate you", you said
You shoved the bad thoughts in your own head
Why have we called up every few months?
It isn't just a phone call
As the topic of us comes up

I need you
You need me
A last word to you will never exist
If I could change and rearrange
I wouldn't have treated you like this
You were the best to me
And I shut you out
Now I know I should have stuck us out
I never would have started new
I should have stayed right beside you
I like that you've grown
And I've grown too
But it's too late to change it
In the distance is your new 

I've put more stress on you than intended to
Greater than the tides of the ocean blue
I've got trust issues but when I talk to you
All I hear are words of wisdom and truth
How do we move forward?
We're stuck in quicksand
I'm sinking and overthinking
If I had loved you before I'd be fine
Instead I was a little girl playing too much

Now it's so much more
Now I know how to adore and not ignore

I'm so so sorry
Being attached to you is the ugly truth
I want to get close
I don't want to get close
The consequences are there
But I still don't want you away
Four years
Four fucking years feeling this way