Names Have Been Changed To Protect The Guilty: How I Learned I Was Great
Step 1: Forgiveness
Forgive but don't forget I say to myself as if the knives of your words
hadn't silenced me earlier, as if in between each letter of forgiveness
lay an ocean of good intentions and honesty, as if it could erase the pain.....
L, you told me I would be prettier if I lost some weight, I think you would
be nicer if you kept your mouth shut and stopped measuring girl's worth
in pounds and calories. I forgive you.
B, Scars don't tell my story, my stretchmarks spell out "beautiful" and my
tears won't make me any less stronger. I forgive you.
J, for 21 months I believed forever had no expiration date and that open
legs meant more than an open heart. I was mistaken, I know my worth now
and I have galaxies growing in me. I forgive you.
Step 2: Acceptance
I realized that hiding my pain under layers of half-assed metaphors woudn't
necessarily make it go away and there's nothing beautiful or romantic in
drowning in a mere puddle when I'm as great as the sea,.
Self acceptance and growth are attained through a multifaceted journey
And just like me you may someday feel like a negative interval holds more
value than you do, and although I cannot promise you eternal sunshine, always
remember that the sun will rise the next morning, and that you are incredibly awesome and
full of potential , regardless of our miniscule place in this universe we are important.
Never limit yourself because of your past but remember where you come from,
things will get better, use forgiveness to fight off ignorance and evil and don't
you ever forget that you're great.
Step 3: Live