Remind me why

I try-

I try to please

With mounting ease,

Without ever questioning why;

 

Remind me why

I’m here again,

Emitting the same cry

So shrill and filled with pain

Because,

I still don’t understand-

Why.

 

I thought I figured

It out

But,

Everything still eludes

My mind;

And I try

I do-

I try…

But I still can’t

Understand.

 

Pieces of riddled

Delusions,

Taunt me and

Grin at my

Utter inability

To piece them together,

And finally see the

Greater picture

Hiding devilishly

Under the surface

Of damned Surrealism.

 

Pointless and empty,

Haggard and vain;

Questions unanswered

Still plaguing my

Soul that can’t seem

To find peace-

Until every piece

Of the puzzle is complete-

Settled. Fixed.

-Finale.

 

And so I scream

And beat at-

substantial (not)

air…

Fighting to understand

Who,

When,

Where,

How

And most of all…

Why.

 

Mysteries : enigmatic

Riddled with challenges

            Of problematic

Enigmas that leave me befuddled,

Angry, frustrated, craving to

Finally settle this picture-

 

Of the Wildest Conundrum.