Myself
Ive never felt so helpless
Never so alone
I’ve never been so desperate to simply check my phone
I’ve never understood why happy can’t I be
When us being together is all that I should need
But something’s always lurking underneath my skin
I worry it’s a battle I cannot continue to win
The way I feel for you is not the way you feel for me
Or else I wouldn’t feel this way every time you leave
You tell me things that soothe my heart but then it contradicts
Making me feel lied to and making me feel tricked
Blindly though I trust you still with everything I have
But then it’s shown to me again it’s only on my behalf
You’d never do the same for me what I have done for you
So now I sit here to overthink what is it that is true?
I know that you don’t love me
And I know I’m not your favorite
I know that just because you say so doesn’t mean I can believe it
I’m trapped inside and you never help
I know that what I really need is love for myself
Ive never felt so helpless
Never so alone
I’ve never been so desperate to simply check my phone
I’ve never understood why happy can’t I be
When us being together is all that I should need
But something’s always lurking underneath my skin
I worry it’s a battle I cannot continue to win
The way I feel for you is not the way you feel for me
Or else I wouldn’t feel this way every time you leave
You tell me things that soothe my heart but then it contradicts
Making me feel lied to and making me feel tricked
Blindly though I trust you still with everything I have
But then it’s shown to me again it’s only on my behalf
You’d never do the same for me what I have done for you
So now I sit here to overthink what is it that is true?
I know that you don’t love me
And I know I’m not your favorite
I know that just because you say so doesn’t mean I can believe it
I’m trapped inside and you never help
I know that what I really need is love for myself