My Year

A year ago, my mom was diagnosed with cancer for the second time.
A year ago, I found out I was moving from North Carolina to Illinois.

 

Eleven months ago, I started therapy.
Eleven months ago, I was in denial about the seriousness of my mom's illness.

 

Ten months ago, my mom was committed to a Hospice Home.
Ten months ago, I had to fight to stay near my mom for two more months.

 

Nine months ago, I kept busy to keep myself together.
Nine months ago, I visited my mom weekly.

 

Eight months ago, I performed in a musical that made my mom cry tears of pride.
Eight months ago, I moved to Chicago.

 

Seven months ago, I went to North Carolina for Spring Break.
Seven months ago, I saw my mom for the last time.

 

Six months ago, my mom died.
Six months ago, I went to North Carolina on my mom's birthday to mourn her death.

 

Five months ago, I begun community service.
Five months ago, I felt numb.

 

Four months ago, I spent my days bouncing between fitness and volunteer work.
Four months ago, I started my senior year without my mom.

 

Three months ago, I turned seventeen without my mom.
Three months ago, I truly began to mourn.

 

Two months ago, I stayed busy with my school work, college applications, and after school activities.
Two months ago, I overworked myself to avoid my true emotions.

 

One month ago, I began distancing myself from everyone and absorbing myself in a combination of work and social network to escape reality.
One month ago, I became depressed.

 

This year has been the most impactful yet. I watched my mother slowly deteriorate until she just disappeared. I moved into a whole different community and had to try to find where I belong. 
Even though this year has been hard, everything that has happened has only made me stronger. My resilience will overcome this.

 

Let's hope for better years to come.

This poem is about: 
Me
My family

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