My Forever in a Friend
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What are friends for?
Where has my friend gone?
He was my best friend
Well that’s how I feel now
He keeps secrets;
Ashamed to face me
I keep secrets
For my trust he no longer is worthy
We used to walk
Side by side together
We were like High school kids
On the phone till four in the morning
Just randomly speaking;
The stories of our lives
But the world changes
And we eventually have to grow up
We were never a potential to each other
And his heart needs the kind of love
That I can’t give him
Friendship is not prejudice
Nor does it favor sexism
Why can’t I have a best friend that’s a guy?
Can’t he look at me
And just want to be my friend?
Why can’t we just be meant to be friends?
With seven years,
Does she think she would be in his life if we weren’t just friends?
I’m not his only female friend
Did I not know her before she even met him?
Why does the sound of my name from his lips make her cringe?
Making a scene and deserting him in broad daylight
Why does she want him to choose?
Why is she being brought up every time my birthday comes around?
How do you feel about her? How come you guys don’t get along?
Why does everybody know what’s going on except me?
Her jealously was the snake
That poisoned our love
Under the pretence of keeping it alive
“Oh no, she’s not jealous of you, she’s just jealous of our friendship”
“What is there really to be jealous of?”
So I had to walk away
Hoping he would reach out and stop me
Maybe it was my fault
I chose to step back
I was battling him
Why can’t he tell her to stop the bullshit?
While he was battling us
“Well how does your boyfriend feel about me?”
“You know he doesn’t have any problem with you;
he knows exactly where you stand in my life”
Together we became confused
He loved her
But a part of his life I had to be
Why would I let the snake win?
My heart would feel pain
If he could no longer be there in my need
Things around us would change
But we vowed to never change towards each other
Well, that’s what his Christmas card said
It all became awkward
Behind our smiles hid the pain
Even as best friends
Some things were just too hard to confront
But where do we even begin?
My heart would never allow me
To shut his room in me
I will always be there for him
And in turn him for me
This gulp is still hard to swallow
We will always love each other
Even when it hurts the most
I call it a burden
I just hope that
I’m not the only one who caries it
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very expressive in your writing
Why can’t I have a best friend that’s a guy? is a powerful line because most guys don't want just a friendship with a female-they want more
i can sense that as you wrote it, you were saying it
you were telling a story that seems vivid and graphic
always remember that if something didn't happen, it wasn't meant to be
keep writing!!!!!!!! excellent job
i see you are from ny like myself
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