joey I loved you since third grade. I never meant to hurt you. I wish you'd believe me about that. I rarely regret anything in life, but I regret hurting you more than anything. For the first time in my life, I knew when we first started talking that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. I know that I have gone about things in the wrong way when it came to the stuff about Jess and Angela stuff, but to be honest I was scared of losing. I know I'm not perfect and make mistakes but I know that no one will love me like I do when it comes to you. I'm willing to spend the rest of my life fighting to prove to you that I'm sorry and that I will do anything to make you see and believe that. I want to trust you too, and it hurts that part of me still feels like you are going to leave or you have other intentions. I hate that feeling i do