I dropped you off at school just like any
other day. I never thought you’d be taken
away. Your smile still burns in my mind.
Nathan, you, must have been so scared that day.
Your mind must’ve been wondering, so dazed.
I wonder if you recognized the sound
of the gun? Did you know it was your time?
Your death broke my heart, but I must be strong.
I still have your brother you know.
He needs his mother more than ever now.
The laughter with your brother fills the house.
For a single second I am content.
My dearest Nathan, I refuse to think
your death has no meaning. I try to be
happy. Will I spiral down to despair?
Is depression my fate, my only choice?
My little butterfly, I hope you’re fine.
Promise me you won’t forget your mother.
I loved you so. My love grows stronger day
by day. I just hope you love me so too.
One more empty day without you goes by.
Nathan, you are gone now, but forever
in my heart. I feel your presence with me.
My dearest Nathan, I bid you farewell
because I will never tell you goodbye.
Do not ever forget mommy loves you.
*Dylan, this is for you, and for every victim of Sandy Hook. We will never forget.