My feelings are always so gloomy and dark
I have no place on this earth nowhere to make my mark.
My feelings eat me alive my emotions ar sharks.
Im a zippo with no fluid all I do is spark.
I fear my future and hate my past!
everytime I enter the race I come in last.
suicidal thoughts have been floating in my head.
Overthinking stuff while I lay up in my bed.
Blades on the desk my writs and shoulders are red.
Everyone would be happy if I was dead.
I cant cry anymore my eyes have dryed out.
Ive been searching for the meaning of life.
I dont think im gonna find out.
I keep throwing away my emotions like they were a ball,
But they keep coming back like I threw them at a wall.
My path is crooked so i cant see the end.
I have a bad feeling so I close my eyes and play pretend.
I feel alone even when im with my friends.
Still the beginning of my life but it might be the end.