Have you ever thought about giving your all to one person and they just leave you? Or that things just won't work or go as planned? Even maybe that something tragic may step into place like DEATH? That thought constantly rings in my head. I don't want to give him everything that I have in me and then i'm stuck with a baby on my own. He's lucky enough that he's gotten this close. I can't believe I allowed him to get close enough to affect my feelings. I've changed my way of thinking, dressing, and even style. The things he says to me make me lie awake at night wondering. " Is this real, does he really love my smile, did he really ask me out because of my demeanor, how did he get so close in such small time?" I don't want to be too attached and wants sex. He feels that the next step is to have sex. He says that I love him and he loves me so why not. I do trust him but I also feel like , we as women can't put anything past men. We only end up being shocked and hurt in the end.But I love him so dearly that I would do anything he asked. I would hate to lose him to something like this. He's my first love and first real boyfriend. I just can't believe how he makes me feel. I am stuck, I made a promise to God that I wouldn't break my purity but this guy just pushes me there. I have never felt this way until I met him. I'm afraid and don't want to lose him but I rather lose a man than to lose God while there still lives many fishes in the sea. But hey, that's just my biggest fear. I'll get over it when I'm married. Ladies can relate.