Its nights like

tonight

When I feel most vulnerable

that

I desire your arms

to be

wrapped

around my waist

pulling 

my heart

closer to yours

When I feel 

cold

and empty

and worthless

I crave

the warmth

and comfort 

your body pressed

next to mine

offers.

Raped.

Sometimes,

I feel like what happened

         between

me                                                           steven

and

    was somehow

          my fault.

Sometimes,

I feel like what happened

         between

me                                                           steven

and

 is something I'm just

Imagining.

All the time,

I feel like what happened

         between

me                                                        

and

            steven

is why I'm broken

                    empty

                    worthless.