I came downstairs crying one night
When I was a little girl
Because I was scared
That someone I love would die,
Would get sick and die,
Because death takes without warning
And offers nothing back.
My mother held me
And I wanted her to promise me
That no one in our family would get sick and die
Before they had their life filled up
With enough time
So I can show them I love them
And they can love me back.
My mother looked sad
And she told me she couldn’t promise that
But she held me,
My mother held me,
And told me not to worry
Because I have no control.
I have no control and
All we can do is love right now.
So I tried to love right now
But my worst fear pestered,
It burned and festered
Glowing yellow eyes keeping me awake.
And one day my worst fear came true.
And once you know that the worst can happen
Tha the worst will happen
You don’t know how to love without fear
Because monsters are real
And they will find you under the covers
And they will kill.