its two am

i can’t escape the happiness that surrounds me

i find myself watching videos about couples

and i see couples being happy 

and so my mind plays with my heart

making me think if i want to be happy

i need to be in a relationship

now the thought of it sounds nice

but I’m too impatient to wait for something as good as it sounds

so i pinpoint another source of happiness

i look in the internet

i look in my fridge

i look in my room

and i look in the sky

i see there’s one guy

who shows up all the time

he disappears and reappears when i need him

which is this time of night

but he can’t hold me like i wish for

he can’t kiss me like i yearn for

i can’t even fathom how he could help me

it sucks

when its late and your alone

music can’t help

and it seems like no ones home

the white walls deceive your perception and make you feel

this is all i will ever see

but in great time a sight will be seen

-TH