Certain songs cause me to feel certain things,

think of certain things,

memories flood out through my brain uncontrollably, 

memories that I wish I could forget. 

You used to mesmerize me, make me feel so important, so special. 

We would kiss and sparks would fly, 

I would feel like that every single time, not just the first time. 

How could I be so blind, how could I not read the signs? 

You were playing me so hard, I thought you loved me. 

So mesmerized that I couldn't see. 

I cling on to the memories because it is all I have left,

like a footprint on my heart, it feels like you are stepping down so hard I can barely breath. 

But at the same time I wish you didn't leave. 

Can I just stop being in this state of limbo, 

You have done enough damage although you do not even begin to understand

how I miss holding your hand, how I miss being yours.